Destructive instinct(lead us not into temptation)
My name is josh markson,today I am learning the hard way.I am a victim of assumption,born great but right now I wish I was not created.life is 100% spiritual,I would rather begin my story in an unusual manner.starting with our Lord’s Prayer-Matthew 6:9-13New International Version (NIV)
9 “This, then, is how you should pray:
“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us today our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation,***
but deliver us from the evil one.[b]’.
Self manipulation remains a difficult thing till date.It is easier to control things and to determine the outcome of a thing via certain crafty manipulations.people fail in life more often when they breakdown.To breakdown is to have a destructive experience on your pathway to destiny,also to breakdown is to experience an unexpected break on your journey through life.What causes the sad story is not the break but when you go down.To go down is to accept defeat or failure.so to breakdown in life is taking a break to go down.there is a conflicting instinct and a shift in discernment when a man is broken down.Any kind of breakdown either emotional or mental breakdown etc have similar or twin disturbing effects which has lead people to alcoholism or even to do the unspeakable in the process of trying to get out of it.There is a loss of control when there is a break-failure.Anyone broken down needs a helping hand,from divinity.
I could see a moonlight serenade few days before the much anticipated Friday-night.A night of bliss I supposed,what a sweet memorial,Woke up in a state of euphoria,played with snow balls,after much preparation and high expectations,i gave Gloria from my area a call reminding my miss about our date.for so long we have been dating and the bible has been our standard right from the onset of our relationship.Ring ring ring!!!….Tired of hearing that sound in my ears,so I ended the call after two trials, with the assumption that she would call back once my missed call is seen.I made a cup of cupa,sat down on my favorite chair with my leg crossed and was siping my cup of cupa gently.
I was engaged with lots of Flashbacks while siping my cup of cupa.trapped in what I assumed to be a trance, my blinking eyes could see this little damsel walking across the street,Instantly from a distance I could behold her charming beauty,bright smile and the fire in her eyes.i was breathless,felt something deep that I needed medication.seems like I took her love portion,found my self walking up to her in an unusual dimension.This time I was fast asleep,it was no longer my thoughts but my dream I suppose.It seems to be historic,my past reminder I guess.Joshhh…Joshhh,I heared that echo on my right ear,Sensing an unusual presence,I was griped with fear,immediately goose pimples appeared around my body,then I said to my self ignoring the fearful sensation would help calm my nerves so I did.I heared the voice calling my name (josh) for the second time but I was able to ignored it.The third call,was more terrifying,it was a still little voice like the voice of many waters.it made me jump off my sleeping chair staining my outing wear,this time I was fully awake and my sleepy eyes was clear.
What a Shocking discovery.
Son of man fear not,only be sober and vigilant because your adversary the devil is like a roaring lion,walketh about seeking whom he may destroy.1peter 5:8)this words kept ringing in my ears after a while it stopped.
Suddenly my eyes were covered from behind by an unknown personality,just when i thought I was relieved.who could this be?,I wondered in my heart,I could feel a soft hand covering my eyes and a voice saying guess who is behind you”…I never knew when I said oh my gosssh angrily!!…..show your self or else……this time I was tired of the whole drama,then I heared surprise surprise”!!!.my eyes was opened.you won’t believe it….my goodness,it’s Gloria,what a shocking surprise,how how,how…..caught my self stamaring,so many questions running through my mind.she was like shhhh!!…immediately she took off her cloth and was standing completely nude inviting me to come and take her virginity
I was scared and at the same time it seems to be a golden opportunity,I couldn’t wait to get in between her legs.it was obvious that I have lost my sense of reasoning,nothing else matters to me,rather than maintaining my state of ecstasy.This is a man that have never known a woman all through his life until now,a man of God,anointed from his mother’s womb,a man who has won several spiritual warfare in time past.what next?,she looks too good to be harmful,could this be love?…
The marital bed was defied.after a while their eyes were opened and they were sober.
Gloria quickly gave a shocking confession to josh that she was HIV positive,Ebola positive,staphylococcus positive,SARS positive,and demonic positive and also how she was strategically sent and positioned by the pit of hell to cut short his destiny,but he was carried away by her innocent face,beauty and godly apparel.
After the confession she died….immediately josh started singing -Pass me not, O gentle Savior,
hear my humble cry;
while on others thou art calling,
do not pass me by.
Savior, Savior, hear my humble cry;
while on others thou art calling,
do not pass me by.
Let me at thy throne of mercy
find a sweet relief,
kneeling there in deep contrition;
help my unbelief.
Trusting only in thy merit,
would I seek thy face;
heal my wounded, broken spirit,
save me by thy grace.
Thou the spring of all my comfort,
more than life to me,
whom have I on earth beside thee?
Whom in heaven but thee?
WHAT NEXT FOR JOSH???…
God is calling on us all today to be careful.
A novel inspired by the holyghost
M.H Philemon publication.